Blogmas || Last Day of School

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Hey guys! Sorry for not posting lately but I have been busy with end of term exams, and other school work which sucks... So today is the last day of term and I am now in my Christmas Break... HURRAY! But, as it is the last day, I have been slightly more anxious. The reason for this has been explained in my blog post titled "AnxiousEachDay || Blogmas Post 1" but for the sake of those who haven't read it but would prefer to stay in this tab, here is the reason why:


A couple of years ago, on the last Friday of the school term, just before Christmas break, I was sick. That might not seem like such a big deal, but as I associate certain days/places with events that have occurred in those places and at that time (as explained on "Disappointment&Similar Events" ), I get really worried on the last day of term.

This year, I have tried quite hard to keep calm throughout the day, and I do admit, it has been quite difficult. I've felt so many moments of panic that bubble up, but, unusually for me, I  actually managed to calm myself pretty quickly. Something that really helped me today, was something I told myself over and over again:
If things are going to happen, they will happen anyway, no matter how much  I worry about it in the lead up. Why worry about an event happening when if it is going to happen, it will happen anyway" 
I'm not exactly sure how, or why, but that actually managed to calm me down quite a bit, and my anxiety was, well, just that. Anxiety. I told myself that worrying was completely pointless, and a waste of time, because if things are going to happen, they will happen, regardless of how much I stress or worry about it.

AnxiousEachDay
xx

Edit || I was going to just post this, but just before I did, I decided to add on a lil' extra, positive bit. A week or two ago, I was in a down, negative mood, and I felt really disappointed and stressed. I had been trying hard to calm myself down during panic attacks/moments of anxiety and my attempts hadn't really worked, which left me feeling really frustrated with myself. But, today, things have felt much more positive, and it has even changed my views slightly on associating certain events with places/times, as today hasn't been all that bad!