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Hi guys! So several days ago, I was in class and several people sitting near and around me were coughing, which triggered my anxiety and emetephobia. Whenever winter comes around, people tend to get ill, with colds and other illnesses spreading in the form of bacteria, but I still seem to get anxious. Even when I myself don't feel that well, I make it 100 times worse for myself due to the anxiety I feel about being ill. Sometimes, my people around me tell me that it will be okay and if I feel sick, there is a 'bin over there' or 'toilets just over there' but if I'm entirely honest (and that's what the blog is about, sharing my feelings and being honest), that just makes me feel so much worse, though I don't actually know why? A lot of my anxiety is like that; I often feel anxious and yet, I have no idea how to explain what I feel.
My parents sometimes ask "what is worrying you"/"why are you anxious" but my answer, a lot of the time is: "I don't know". Yes, it is always partly because of my emetephobia, but there is always a second reason why I am feeling the way I do, and it is sometimes hard for me to put my finger on that thing.
Maybe a few months or so again, I started getting really anxious in the shower, but I have no idea why. Like, I will want to get out as quickly as possible and I will feel really constricted and almost claustrophobic. The scent of my shower gel (which is currently scented raspberry) will start to get really sickly sweet even though I love the smell, and I will find myself wanting fresh, un-raspberry-scented air (as in, normal oxygen).
Does anyone else have this? And if so, how do you cope? The reason I mentioned this, is because it links back to what I said about 'not knowing why I feel anxious'. I still have absolutely no clue why I am feeling anxious in the shower and it is an everyday event so I really need to work out why I feel anxious in the shower, so I can be on the way to controlling that anxiety. Nothing bad has happened to me in the shower so I am not associating the shower with a certain event (see Disappointment&Similar Events ). I guess I'm going to keep trying to find a reason, but it's hard. I've literally racked my brains and I cannot find any reason why I am feeling like this in the shower?...
AnxiousEachDay
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