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I was around my friend's house and when we were eating, I began to start feeling the familiar, unpleasant feeling of anxiety. Whenever I am eating out, whether it be at a restaurant or my best friend's house, I get anxious, most of the time because I am worried that the food I am eating will make me sick. For most people, they can eat food normally without worrying but for me, with my emetephobia, I constantly worry about whether food is out of date or what ingredients are in the food, even if I have that particular food frequently. It is just something I have got used to, but sometimes I find it hard to cope with this anxiety, even though I have had it since I was a really young age.
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So on my previous post Emetephobia I mentioned getting anxiety because of a disgusting event that happened in a Biology class about a week or so ago, and as I have Biology again tomorrow, I have found myself starting to get anxious again. This always seems to happen, because I seem to associate certain events with certain places and sometimes food. For example, a quite a few months ago, someone was sick near me when I was out shopping and I had a panic attack in a shop. Now I seem to associate that shop (which was Morrisons) with that event and I find myself avoiding going to it as much as I can. Then when I do go to it, I get quite panicky (though I actually haven't been there for a while now). I'm not actually sure why I associate events with feelings/emotions, like if I've been panicky at a place I'll seem to get panicky the next time I go there. It can become really annoying and in a way links back to the first section of this post which is 'Disappointment'. Does anyone else associate certain events/situations with anxiety, and if so, how do you deal with this? Do you avoid the place? Or face your fear? People always tell me to face up to my fears, but sometimes, it makes me feel so much worse after I have faced it, which just makes me want to avoid the fear even more. Because, when I face it again, I get really anxious, so then I still associate that place with my anxiety/panic attacks because once again, when I went there, I was anxious. It is really just a cycle that keeps repeating itself, like deja vu, because the same thing happens in the same place...
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Anxiety Each Day
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